mcrrox's Journals on Buzznet http://mcrrox.buzznet.com/user/journal/ en-us <![CDATA[A wedding you'll never forget]]> http://mcrrox.buzznet.com/user/journal/16108/wedding-youll-never-forget/ Jazz and Ray stood up to the thing to were a priest a goth one came up then music started playing. I walked out I was eithor a flower girl or a brides maid and right when I opened the door everyones eyes filled with tears because of what I looked like. MY hair was up with bangs down I had ducked tape on my mouth and my eyes were red and my makeup was goth really goth I walked out with dead roses in my hands I was sobing I didn't want to do anything. Blood red dress skid on the floor. Gerard got an angry look on his face."WHAT DID DO TO HER!?!,"Sreamed Jazz in his face. "We touchtered her a little and she was a nasty one to she's pretty much scard for life after what we did.,"Said Ray begining to laugh. Then Jazz spit in his face he slaped her so hard to were she cried a little.I ran over and started to attack him. Untill  finally he pushed me to the floor I passed out I hit my head so hard. Gerard screamed then broke threw the ropes then got Ray by the throat.But right when he did Ray stabed him. Gerard looked his hands full of blood then looked at the wound I he looked up at him barley breathing. woke up I ripped the ducked tape off"NO GERARD NO!,"I SCREAMED. He looked at me then fell to the ground.I got over him I stroked his face"Why baby why?,"I said faintly tears streming down my face.He whipped my tears off " Anything for you , you're my love anything and I love you more then anything you're my favorite person.......you're my favorite person Athena. Like I said I would die for you.,"He said breathing hard I smiled tears coming out of my eyes he kinda  laughed and whiped another one off my cheak I grabed his hand andrested my head on his cheast he ran his fingers threw my hair I closed my eyes and remembered all the good times I had with him."Athena stop criing we'll meet again I promise we'll meet again.,"he said I kissed his lips he smiled sadly.Then I listined as his heart beat got fainter and fainter untill it stopped I let out a cry"NOOOOO why did you that why?," Then I remembered what he said and I understood why he did it in love he loved me and loved him."Gerard...I love you, Wait for me baby wait for me good bye.,"I kissed him one last time then I stroked his moitionless face it was cold then I realized he was gone. I was never gonna wake up to his warm smile and beautiful green eyes again.I took one last look at him Whipped my eyes then turned to look at Ray but they were gone then I looked at Mikey I untied and untapped him. We bolth started to cry as we held on to each other realizing that Gerard was dead and never coming home I let go of Mikey and the search for Jazz Ray and Frank began...

]]> Buzznet mcrrox 2006-03-27T16:55:00Z <![CDATA[Intense]]> http://mcrrox.buzznet.com/user/journal/15881/intense/ Jazz walked out of the closet.I got up she turned away I yawned."Hey Jazz It's been awhile.", I said in a tired voice. "Yeah.", she said I could tell she didn't know what to say."Hey Gerard can me and Jazz have a sec alone ?",I asked."Yeah I'll be in back Love you.", He said kissing me and walking out. "Jazz listen I... nobody knows this but these people are coming to kill everyone they've been stalking me for a while and yesterday they shot at me and I'm scared.", I said getting up and hugging her."Oh my god no... You and Frank just came back I can't let this happen.", she said I let go of her and half smiled" Well I better perpare for the worst see ya around.", I said as I walked out...

Later that night we were in the living room listeng to the new song "desert song" We were just hanging out then somebody knocked on the door. I looked at Jazz we knew what was gonna happen. I looked at Gerard he gave me the cuttest smile and we bolth looked threw the peep hole it was a dude in a coat with his hoodie up. I looked at Frank in a scared look. ''What's wrong.", He said getting up. "some fuckin werid dude.",said Gerard looking threw it. "stand back I'll get it.", He said but wright before his finger tips even touched the door knob three bullets shoot through the door. Frank turned to look at Jazz blood coming out his mouth to tears coming out his eyes."Jazz I love you baby.", He said falling back. I cought him and slowly put him on the ground. He had a expresstion of pain on his face. Jazz pushed me off touching his face."Jazz I know what let me... She hissed at me "THIS YOUR FAULT STAY THE FUCK AWAY!", She yelled. My feelings were hurt and Mikey walked up stairs "Is everything alright?'', He said catching his breath. "WHAT DOES IT LOOK LIKE FUCKER?",She yelled now mikey felt bad. I stood up Gerard stood he grabed my waist and I gave him a long kiss then They pushed threw the door and shot us in a hail of bullets I let go as I felt the blood streaming down my hand and whatch as is driped off my fingers"I'm sorry Gerard"I said falling back as Gerard celasped on the floor Jazz stared up at them as they pointed the gun at her she looked at them "you can not distroy me YOU CAN NOT DISTROY ME .", They shot her she fell on Frank. I heard Mikey Scream Then I whispered in Gerard's ear I knew he was still alive "Pertend to be dead.", He nodded as he was breathing hard he grabed my hand then we heard them walking then I saw the afro Ray was one of then "Ray.", I whispered.They looked around "We got em all.",Said Ray as they walked out. Gerard let out a sigh of relief as he turned to look at me It was pitch black and could see his outline I got closer to him clenching his hand "Try to hold on .",he said weakly reaching over to touch my face and he whiped my tears off my face."I love you Gerard .", I said  breathing hard. "Don't say your goodbyes yet not today... Not today.", He said. I smiled sadly. He kissed me "like my song I'll End my days with you in a hail of bullets but one thing we arnt gonna die baby not tonight not this way.", He said I cuddled onto him he rapped his  arms around me and kissed my kneak.We looked at eachother. "It's getting quiet.I said "I know.", He said. Then I heard JAzz wimper a little then turn on her  side she nudged me."Athena are you alright.",She whispered. I'm surprised you even care.",Isaid. "Look Athena it's not your fault I..."Like you said This was my fault it's my fault that me and Gerard are lying in a pool of blood dyeing it's my fault Mikey may be dead same with Frank.",I said "I'm sorry I said that but what really makes me hurt is that I called him a fucker as my last words and I hope the baby's okay.," She said as she lyed back down. a hour passed of silance I worried I knew Jazz took Frank upstairs to help him but what about Gerard."Gerard are you alright ?", I said nudgeing him. He didn't answer "Gerard baby please don't tell me your dead,Please get up get up.",I said useing all my strenth to sit up tears stearming down my face.He did nothing "wake up wake up Gerard wake up say you love me do somthing baby please.," I layed on him"I love you.," I said closeing my eyes then suddenly I felt his heart beat again I opened my eyes and smiled...

]]> Buzznet mcrrox 2006-03-25T18:54:53Z <![CDATA[^-O]]> http://mcrrox.buzznet.com/user/journal/15644/o/ I wanted to go back to Gerard then I heard Jazz was pergent with Gerard's kid. Sadniss hit me like a rock as I fell to my knees and I thought to myeslf what's worth living if the love of your life was married to your only friend. I cried silently as I heard Gerard getting ubset."THIS WASN'T SOPOSSED TO HAPPEN WITH YOU JAZZ!",He yelled."IT'S NOT MY FAULT A SERTEN SOMEONE GOT TO EXCITED TO US A CONDOM!!", She yelled back.I ran off to find someone to hug or hold on to. I ran up to the forth floor and slid onto the roof I was looking down I cried out loud finally the wind blowing my hair on the side."WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME GERARD WHYYYYY!?",I cried out I held on to the railing then went to the other side of it."I can't live without your love Gerard I love you but...I thought you loved me.",I whispered I took a deep breath then I let go of it as I began to fall the wind blew hard agansit my face then a hand grabbed me I looked up and Gerard was looking down at me love in his eyes "You can't go unless you take me with you.",He said "Gerard you don't love me anymore you fuckin liar.",I said "Then why did I save you and why is my ring around your finger I will always love you please don't do this again my heart can't stand it any longer if you go I have too to.",He said" Gerard let me go I can't be alive any more I can't take my broken heart anymore.", "gerard let me you owe me that much you...Owe me that much.", I whispered. "no I can't do it I love you to much I'll die without you in my life.",He said begining to cry."I'm sorry.",I said my chin jiddering and then I looked down as to tears fell out of my eyes then I suddenly wanted to live."Gerard pull me over.",Gerard got a surprised look then nodded as he used all his seranth to pull me over.THen my hand started to slip"Don't let me fall baby please.",I said tring to keep his grip then my hand sliped and I screamed as I fell."ATHENA NOHOO NO NO NOOOOOO!!!!!.'', He cried out his hand still out as he whatched me hit the pavement. He ran down and outside he grabed me and Held me in his arms he started to freak out as that vision in his head of me stareing at him in the eyes as he lost his grip burned in his memory. He kissed me gentley as he begin thinking he let me down which made him cry harder blood came out of my mouth two tears fell off his face and landed on mine then i slowly opened my eyes. He looked down then slowly smiled as i smiled weakly he went for a kiss then i put my fingers to his lips "No Gerard you have Jazz.", I said triing not to cry then his smile faded away as he tried not to cry then I looked and I saw Jazz standing there surprised...

]]> Buzznet mcrrox 2006-03-23T17:22:22Z <![CDATA[here it gose]]> http://mcrrox.buzznet.com/user/journal/15515/here-it-gose/ I felt my breath slid into me and i looked and i was in a glass coffin. Then i saw the bite marks on my wrist i looked at it strange then i opened the coffin and slid out i awsomed that i died because my lungs hurt like hell  i walked around up to rays room then i heard the conversation. I tried to clear my mind so they couldn't read it then I heard Gerard's thoughts i don't know why and I didn't like them. I felt a lump in my throat and i wiped the tears from my eyes it's like they didn't care i was dead anymore"I should've dead i said to myself.",I said to myself. They were getting married and i couldn't take it.Then i saw Gerard's shadow look around i could tell he could hear them so i looked around then i went into the darkness."Athena?",he asked looking around. "I guess it was my imagenation.'',he said starting to cry I felt forgotten and broken hearted so that's why i hid. We he was gone i came out I hid tell later then i heard Gerard singing and playing the guitar ir was a song i never heard before but it was so beautiful and it made me cry. I decieded to revile myself to him that I was alive i came out." Gerard.",i said steping out.He turned then his mouth dropped i got up he was shaking as he touched my face. Two tears went down his face then he pulled me into a kiss."It worked i.. i can't believe it worked.", He said hugging me then he began crying harder he had forgotten that he was about to get married to Jazz 'I know Gerard whats happening with Jazz I'm gonna go i said drifting into the darkness"No Athena wait don't.. don't please no don't leave.',said Gerard falling on his knees begining to cry and reaching for my hand.I shoke my head "I have to be happy with her i will always love you just be happy with her.",I said."NO COME BACK ATHENA NOHOO.",He cried out."no I can't I can't .",I said my voice fading then i disipered into it listening to him cry."no come back.", He whispered a horrified look on  his face... To be continued.

]]> Buzznet mcrrox 2006-03-22T20:51:00Z <![CDATA[T-T this is sad]]> http://mcrrox.buzznet.com/user/journal/14377/t-t-sad/ i ran back because of my instinks then i jumped ontop of Frank then i grabed his stalk and held it over him go to hell then i stab him seven times frank couldn't breath and he spit up blood then he died. I stared then i screamed out a cry i was balling Jazz walked over to me thank youshe said helping me up then hugging me.Franks blood was all over my face then Gerard and Mikey ran back mikey kissed Jazz then hugged her Gerard kissed me three times i love you he whispered in my ear then i kissed him he wiped my tears then i pushed him back. I can't live with killing him i said grabing the stalk. Gerard tried to pry it out of my hand but  i jerked it away. I can't i said shakeing my head no no no then i stabed myself Gerard grabed me before i hit the ground he moved my hair from my eyes then gazed at me a tear came out of his eyes. Gerard i whispered really weak and i grabed his shirt then i died Jazz started to sob and Gerard fell to his knees holding me and let out a cry he hugged me why did u leave me here to rot in hell why you're the only thing with living then he couldn't help but to cry. Wait gerard i have a way said Mikey getting up. What do you mean?Said Gerard wipeing his eyes.I know how to bring vampires back from the dead,you have to bite them in a serten way i forgot let me see. He ran to his books and read through one then he found it he ran back.It says"That the only way to bring back a vampire is to bite your rist and bite the decesed vampires also then put them together then a light should come from somwere and they should come to life"., But there are risks you can die. Gerard's mouth dropped it was ethor risk his life for his love or let her die.Gerard swallowed hard then looked at my lifeless body he touched my face. I'll do it he said.He bit down on his rist then bit mine then he put them together Gerard closed his eyes then he felt as he got weaker and weaker and weaker.His exprestion looked like he was in pain he started shaking then he couldn't take it it was hard on him the shaking got worse then he thought maybe i should've done a different way Gerard might be diein

]]> Buzznet mcrrox 2006-03-13T20:43:00Z <![CDATA[mcr fine ill write]]> http://mcrrox.buzznet.com/user/journal/14327/mcr-fine-ill-write/ I looked at Mikey standing there. Mikey i thought i could trust you I said looking at him.He looked down I'm sorry he said looking down.Then Gerard's phone rung he got it it was Ray.Hello?FRANK DID WHAT okay we'll be right there he hung up. Well i said resting my head on his shoulder.He sighed Frank attacked a girl by useing the worst kind of damage a vampire could do he used life forse on her and shes half dead .Everyone gasped we ran up the stairs to find a girl unconcus on the floor Frank was on the couch curled in a ball balling his ass off. Ray was shacking his head in disbelief. That could've been one of you said Ray. Frank lifted his head his eyes were red and his lips were blue from so much crying he threw a pillow at ray then rested his head on his knees then we watched as the girl died i cleched Gerard's jacket then turned my head he held me closer then he ever had then we went back down stairs then i realized Jazz was bleeding. Jazz you're bleeding she looked and there was a cut on her cheast then she went belistick. THIS IS ALL OF YOUR GUY'S FAULT THE ONLY PERSON I TRUST IS ATHENA I'M SCARED SHITLESS BECAUSE OF YOU GUYS.she yelled. Now she really dosen't like me said Mikey . Jazz's anger slowly sliped away. Mikey look I... I ....Said Jazz. Then Mikey grabed her by the shoulders and they looked in each others eyes lovingly then Mikey kissed her whiched turned into making out i smiled and laughed under my breath then Gerard touched my face i could tell somthing was about to happen then i grabed his hand back then went to my ear then whispered i know you want me and i know i  want you to i got a surprised look on my face as he closed in for a kiss. Then blood flew through the air Frank had thrown a stalk at Gerard he breathed hard and passed out on the ground i sreamed then i turned my head sharp at Frank the jumped at him I pissed i wanted to murder Frank then i put my hands around his throat and my nails dug into his skin but unaware to me he had another stalk and he drove it through my back and came through my chest it was like time stopped then i wined a little then i fell back triing to breath as i felt the point through my clevege...

]]> mcr Buzznet mcrrox 2006-03-13T12:25:00Z <![CDATA[okay]]> http://mcrrox.buzznet.com/user/journal/13883/okay/ finelly gerard stopped hurting frank then they uncovered our eyes the other girl covered her mouth as two tears went down her face i looked at frank and was weiling up. Frank was covered in blood he wiped the blood from his mouth then stood up.YOU KNOW WHAT GERARD YOU HURT TO MANY GIRLS TONIGHT OKAY I'M TRIING TO COM THEM AND YOU SAY THEY'RE GONNA THERW PAIN?!!!!!!!Yelled Frank. Gerard did a passing glance at me then looked down and started crying then he ran to his room. Ray rubbed his temples. Gerard likes you bolth more then friend and Frank...Said Ray. SHUT UP RAY SHUT UP SHUTUP SHUT-UP!!!!!We don't need this psidcik crap!!!!!Yelled Frank. WELL AT LEAST I DON'T HAVE INTENTIONS OF KILLING THEM FOR PLEASURE!!! said Ray then he quickly covered his mouth. Fuck said Frank two tears streaming down his face.Look girls I...said Frank. Their names are Jazz and Athena said Ray his head burried in his hands. Jazz and Athena I don't wanna kill you i like you and i hope you feel the same.Said Frank. Look Frank we'd rather go with psco Gerard then you come on Jazz then i got up and walked to his room Jazz looked at frank then followed me.we went to Gerard's room we wevt down the stairs and we say Gerard breathing in and out. Then he pressed a drawing on the wall and he did another it was each sperate of me and Jazz crying and written in blood was i hurt two beatiful girls for life then i hurt myself. i saw blood stains in his sleave and blood gushing out of his wrists then we saw a garbege full of empty dimoand powder.He turned around. Oh hi he said triing to hide his wrists. We came down here becauze Frank wants to kill us so we felt safe down here. I said. Gerard's motionless face turned into a grin. He looked down That's makes me feel good sorry i have mood swings i have'nt sleept in three days,come here. WE bolth went to him you see before i met Frank i remember laying on the ground because I O.D. so i could die then i felt diging in my kneak it hurt so bad then i woke up in this shit hole. I remembered i did it because mikey went missing it was going on a month so i lost hope and i found out ass hole up there bit him and told him to wait that he'd get me.He said putting his head on my shoulder.Then he looked at Jazz.Mikey want's you he thinks about you alote and yes i can read minds to, He fell for you when he was holding you on his lap i could feel it he thinks you don't like him but maybe you should pay him a visit today when he's sleeping if you know what im sayin  

]]> mcr Buzznet mcrrox 2006-03-09T19:40:17Z <![CDATA[For GerardVampire]]> http://mcrrox.buzznet.com/user/journal/13849/for-gerardvampire/ i woke up next to my car. My magazine was demalished and it was three a.m.. I heard the gravel move again i turned around to make sure they didn't know i was awake a ciggeret fell by me. You got another one gee the other girl was worse enough. He turned me around and i saw frank Iero and Gerard glareing at me. Are you guys gonna finish me off?I said in a tired voice. No but he might said Frank giving him a dirty lookCome on we have that other girl at the house with Mikey said frank. Gerard picked me up and layed me in a van then he sat by me. He slowey grabed my hand. Ray looked at me so he got you in the parking lote the other girl i forgot her name,gerard attacked her in a ally poor thing almost bled to death Said Ray. THen Gerard saw my lips change from pink to red. WE NEED TO GIVE HER THE POWDER OR SHE'LL HAVE BLOOD NICIFITS HURRY UP!!!!!! Yelled Gerard. We arrived at a house a nice house by that matter i was barly awake and triing to stay awake. I let out a shierk of pain as i felt my teeth getting longer. They hurried in the house and Mikey was in there with a girl's head on his lap she looked at me.Her to god you want chicks tonight i told you to get Mr.Bubba that guy i had to take a shower with in jail ewhew it still gives me the creeps and i think he got drunk and tried to rape me. Said Mikey. Everybody paused for a second. Oh my god said Frank gaging and running in the other room then it broke in laughter then Gerard layed me on the couch and told Mikey to follow. Me and the girl didn't talk for a while then she broke the silance.So he atempted to kill you to?She said looking at me.Yeah but i don't mind he's hot. They walked back in.What's gonna happen to us next?I said.Alote of pain said Gerard.I'm scared she said  

]]> mychemicalromance Buzznet mcrrox 2006-03-09T15:49:58Z <![CDATA[the day i got bit by gerard]]> http://mcrrox.buzznet.com/user/journal/13706/day-bit-gerard/ on day i was at walmart buying a j-14 magazine it was 12:30 in the morning i walked out i searched my pockets for my keys then i realized i locked my keys in my car oh shit i said.  i walked over to my car cheacked all my car doors to see if it any would open none did. I wanted to call someone but my cell was in there to. My house two miles away so walking was out of the questtion and so was the bus because the rest of my money was in there to i was pissed. i sat down and leaned my head on the door.Then the parking lote lights started to pop and go out i got a weird look on my face then it started to rain which was odd because there was no sign. The i heard foot steps like gravel moving you know. I stood up. Who's there? Then i saw a person with long hair and he or she was driping wet. Then the moon came out and shined on one side of his face as it stoped raining. It was a dude his eyes were beautiful so gorgous it like i was in a trance his face was perfect and his hair was wet and flew as the wind blowed and blood was splattered on his face. He just kept stareing at me his eyeliner was smeared but oh god he was sexy.For some reason i wasn't scared of him . he started walking tourds me intell he reached me. He snached my wrist and made me stand. He grabed me to were we where aginst each other he put his hand on my face and looked at me intensly. he went to kiss me he was kinda teaseing me but barely leting are lips touch intell finelly it turned into making out he stoped. We just stared into each  others eyes. Then he said somthing. You... you know you could change from just on bite he said. Then i saw his fangs his white sharp teeth. He kissed my cheak then whispered. Im sorry then i felt his them rip in my skin we fell slowly to the ground intell we were bolth on the ground he was on top of me my hand dropped and my blood dripped and traveled through the water he got up and stared at me blood on his lips.He touched my lips then i blacked out...  

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